25

OK, so we know the weight loss isn't going well these past few months - and it's gotten even worse the past few weeks.  I'm about back where I was six months ago.  UGH.

I looked at my weight tracking app and realized that I'm only down 25 pounds for the past year.  And I was really upset and frustrated about that, mentally beating myself up about it as I drove to the gym to work out this morning.

And then I started realizing, after class... that's obviously really, really stupid to do.  25 pounds is nothing to sneeze at!  So when I got home, I dug up my old post with the big weight graph and then found the spreadsheet to update it.

Yep, it's not good that the number is going back up again, but overall... damn!  Look at that progress!  Each horizontal line is 20 pounds (and that highest point is when I gave birth - not sure why the date isn't matching up perfectly, but I know that number!).  So I need to stop beating myself up on this.  Yes, I am not going to make my goal of losing a pound a week this year, and that's terribly disappointing.  But I will set a new goal for 2017 of 3 pounds a month I think - 36 pounds for the year - which is more realistic than 52 pounds.

It's crazy how easy it is to be hard on yourself, but I need to keep perspective - and to keep working on this, of course.  The next few weeks will for sure be a challenge, but I know that January is going to be a month of rededication.