up and down, mostly up

So, I have made it to the gym a couple times a week this month, which is good.  It's not having a major impact on my weight yet, but I have to hope that eventually it will.

But my weight is really depressing me these days, especially since I'm coming up on a couple of milestones on my calendar - 10 years since I got married, and 5 years since my lowest weight.

I was curious, so I went through and found my weight over the past 15 years or so, and whipped up a little graph:

The horizontal lines mark every 20 pounds.  First arrow is my wedding.  Approximately 5 years later, I was at my lowest weight (and yes, I gained about 20 pounds in the first two years of wedded bliss).  Second arrow is when I got pregnant.  Third arrow is when I gave birth.  It's a little hard to tell from this graph, but I'm about 5 pounds less now than when I got married.  And I *hate* how I look in my wedding photos.  

So, that's a pretty sobering graph.  

I also got another set of numbers crunched - after a 4 hour food and water (?!) fast on Sunday, I got measured on one of the "in body" body composition machines.  (FYI: 4 hour food fast, no problems - but 4 hours without water was hell and I had a terrible headache all day, even after I rehydrated.)  The results were really miserable.  I tried to convince myself it's just the "before" picture, but damn, it's hard to swallow.

But I did work out after that, doing a full set on the weights circuit plus some kettle bell work, and on Tuesday I did 45 min on a bike (even though my legs were still mad after that kettle bell work!), and yesterday I did an aqua aerobics class (which was great for the stretching actually - plus I did get my heart rate up a few times).  Tomorrow is another aqua class.  Will do the weights again Saturday or Sunday.  And I'm trying to eat healthier, but it's an on-going struggle.